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Monday, October 1, 2007

Scared

OK, so I found another lump on my breast. A "bite" if you will. Problem is - it's the OTHER breast. I don't think a spider bit both of my breasts a month and a half apart. This one is really big too, like having a second nipple. Sorry, I know that's gross, but it's the truth. It's really scary.
So when I went to the doctor last time, he assured me that my breasts were fine. I mean, he examined them thoroughly for over 45 minutes. He announced that nothing was wrong and that my breasts were FABULOUS. Well, I know, but that doesn't mean I want my 65 year old gynecologist commenting on it in quite that way. I think it is time for a new doctor.
I was thinking of going to a skin doctor this time since neither my general practioner or my gyno think anything is wrong. The thing is - I'm losing my hair. By the fistfulls - seriously.Everytime I take a bath I clog the drain. And now this....

This is one of those times that I really just wish that my husband were here so that he could put his arms around me and tell me that everything is going to be ok. He pets my hair and somehow that always makes everything ok. Why is there a lump on my areola? Why is my hair falling out? Why do I have to wait a FUCKING week to find out? Sorry, I'm just scared....

2 comments:

Jenn said...

Snow, I wish I could give you some great wisdom but unfortunately, I can't. I do know that your hubby wishes he was there to comfort you. Sending hugs and good thoughts to you!

Thecapitanios said...

Saying a prayer for you. I know you are scared, but it could just be stress and/or something easily explained. I would see another doctor if you don't feel comfortable with what these two have said. I wish I was closer and could come and give you a big hug.xo Connie